"Immaturity to Purity: How has this change the way I think?"
By TINTA HUMSS 12 - March 18, 2019
By Lee
Two years ago I transferred to another school. It was hard for me to adjust because of the new environment. I was shy towards my classmates because I don't really know them. It wasn't really easy for me communicating with everyone. I kept my fingers crossed throughout the process and few weeks later I met Trixie. Trixie was a gem and has a sense of humor. She was the first person that became my friend in our section. Trixie and I shared a lot of things to each other and our friendship became stronger. Both of us were in the same club, "The Repartee Society". Both of us were happy with our shared moments together but everything changed when I became Immature.
4 months later I joined a band, she was there too. Trixie was our keyboard and I was a sub-vocal. She let me join her band with her friends because she knows I sing good. Something bad happened to me. I started overthinking about our friendship. I remember thinking "do I really deserve to be in this band?" I wasn't able to voice out my problem to her because I was afraid about losing her and our friendship. I felt so bad for myself because never in my life I would experience something worse than a heartbreak. After a few weeks of our "break" or cool off. I began to change my feelings towards her, I started to feel betrayed but later on I got it fixed and we became friends again.
I realized a lot of things throughout the process. I've learned that I shouldn't be afraid to voice out my problems and I shouldn't be overthinking about a situation. I should fix a problem that I've caused and not let it become a sickness. Looking back at it now, I'm still wondering after all the pain I've caused for her. She still stayed and gave me love. She's still there for me, even though she is in another school. She's still letting me know that she loves me for who I am and she'll be here to support me.
Throughout my experience with failure of friendship. Certainly, it taught me to let myself be heard and not let fear overshadow me. There are times that we should really "cool off" because it lets us think about our actions privately. Overall, friendship should be treated like a found long lost treasure. We should appreciate those people who was there for us and who will love us until the end of time.
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