by: Jen
It was 10:00 pm when we both crying, I said my last words and there’s no turning back now. I couldn’t imagine what was I look like that night; do I look like wasted? Ugly? But it doesn’t matter because what’s more important was I managed to face him without any hesitations. As I lay down on my bed, I felt the soft, smooth and full of stories kind of bed. Some random questions came to my mind, what if I stay? What if I ask questions and wait for his answers? Maybe I might be able to understand him and be able to fix our relationship. But half of my mind disagreed and being replaced by thoughts, If I leave, I might regret everything, I might hurt his feelings. I believe that if we love someone do not give all your love, I chose to leave for my own sake and my intention was not to hurt him.
We were both have the same decision to end out relationship, we did it to make ourselves better and to be the best person that we can be. Relationship cannot be defined because of the years that you are together, for me the real and genuine relationship can be found between two people who really love each other despite of the challenges and imperfections. The relationship that we had was like a rollercoaster, three years and three months together was not a joke. We’ve been through many break-ups and still we had each other, but I did not realize that I’m not happy anymore with him. I decided to break-up with him to find myself and my happiness. It’s not a selfish act if you will look what will be the outcome, it is a decision that will change everything between the two of us.
Having a relationship is not for the people to show off that you have one, it is a serious commitment between the two people who love each other. If you enter a relationship you have to accept what will be the consequences, flaws of your partner and love him/her for better or for worst. I told myself that in my next relationship, I have to love myself first and accept my flaws before I love someone else.
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